Where in the world?

On a daily, this song resonates in my head and I have no idea why.

 I doubt that I even listened to it when I was younger because the name Skee-Lo means nothing to me musically and I know music, okay.

So, why? why is it always in my head?

Could it be something to do with the words?

I like the first line, its something I would say. 

I've always wanted to be taller and a baller. 

Although, I don't think I've accepted wanting to be a baller until recently, and I'm not talking about being a basket baller, nope, nothing like what I assume Skee-Lo meant. 

I want to be a rich beech😀😀.

Again, the question in my mind is "why"?

You see, I like that question, it gives me answers to life's most difficult questions.

Now, bear in mind, my parents are of average height so that's what I refer to when I talk about my height.

 I cant lie and say being short is a problem for me because like most jokes say "I'm closer to the ground" so, I have never been afraid of falling and I've also never been afraid of getting on a counter to get what I need at the top of the cupboard. 

In my head, I am a spy and can do all of James Bond's stunts on a whim if I need to. 

The problem is other people, always commenting on things they shouldn't be commenting on. 

Having to constantly defend yourself or try not to be offended when someone says a offensive joke or asks an offensive question is where it all starts.

Feeling bad about an aspect of yourself you cannot change makes you FEEL like you want to constantly change it, not because it affects you, but how other people treat you.

Moral of this story is I can't change my height, I can only make it work for me the best way I know how and the same goes for you, tall or short. 

Next question is, why do I want to be a "baller"?

Well, I grew up in a kasi/hood called Eldorado Park. It is a suburb of Soweto, Johannesburg in South Africa. 

Map of Soweto

It doesn't have the best reputation, just as the people who come from there or still live there also do not. Due to the impoverished state of the citizens of the neighborhood, there are many societal ills that have taken over and this means we're all painted with the same brush, no matter who we are as individuals.

My family - who still live there - always wanted the best for me, which made me want the best for myself too. 

That means that, I saw a life beyond the main road of Eldos.

 The life that I wanted to live meant, I had to either make a significant amount of money to have it or I'd have to make significant sacrifices. 

Staying in my kasi was never an option, I've always wanted more.

My role models were celebrities who made it out of impoverished communities and I'm not talking about American celebs but our very own.

 I wanted to be one of them because if I could just make use of the talent I have to make a difference in how people see me, I would be happy and I'd make a lot of money.

This used to be my thought process 😂.

I still want to be a baller but my definition of a being a rich beech has changed. I want to be rich with love, joy, kindness and happiness. Rich in the things that don't have any monetary value but instead soul value.

So, I think the reason this song is in my head is as a byproduct of my internal dialog and a message I repeat to myself everyday. 

It reminds me to be a kinder individual no matter what my feelings are because many people know these lyrics but our different lives mean we interpret the lyrics differently.